Great Tech 101: How are you?

Wednesday, 14 November 2018

How are you?

Three little words that I sometimes don’t know what to reply to. I want to tell you that I’ve still got this and I’m fine but the reality is that sometimes, I’m just not. I may not be the one who has cancer but I’m still on a parallel cancer journey. For someone who can be rather dramatic (years of youth theatre, darlings) when faced with an actual real life crisis I can be quite pragmatic and resourceful. Who knew? I certainly didn’t. There’s a lot I didn’t know about myself that I’ve had to discover.

Writing the last blog post a few months ago was painful and cathartic. It was good for people to know what was going on and I’m so glad I did it. My immediate reaction was to shut down because it was so personal, so painful and I wasn’t sure I wanted that out there for people to witness and whisper about. I wanted that old happy Instagram highlights life back. It’s not happy, it’s really really difficult, it’s challenging and heartbreaking. At first it was easier to put on the brave face and while I knew that the situation we had found ourselves in was life changing, I believed it could be fixed. But sometimes it can’t. That’s real life. That’s OUR life now. I realised that I want to share this though, when I searched online for information about our “new normal” (I hate that term but it fits the situation) all I could find was medical information and blogs about brain tumours and while it’s always good to be informed, knowledge is power and all that, I wanted to see a family like ours. Who have been dealt a shit hand and are carrying on. Because it does carry on. Kids get older, homework still needs to get done, work obligations still need to be fulfilled. The world keeps turning.

I will update on what’s going on from time to time but I also want to reclaim the blog as somewhere where I can focus on the other stuff too. Stuff that makes me happy. Like these awesome not-so-little-anymore people we are so lucky to have.